automatic writing thread

My eyes are burning and I just want to shut them and lay my head somewhere because it feels like it weighs a million pounds and speaking of pounds my sister gave me some british money that she had that's really funny looking and dirty so I think I'll clean them because I like how money looks when it's shiny and clean and I forgot I still have to clean the kitchen before i can sleep and I know it's a pigsty because too many people live in this house and don't know how to clean up after themselves. Goddamn it why must you people be so lazy don't you ever do anything?
 
to whomever it may concern
reasons why i brought this thread back to life after it has been dead for so long lie in fact that i need somehwere where i could just let a load of my chest. and as this words fill out these depressive gray pages of this board i regret the fact that i wont be able to bring you a full atmosphere that currently surrounds me. you dear reader wont have johnny mandel in background singing suicide is painless, you wont understand my expressions and my opinions that life doesnt get any better. you wont understand my claims that when youre born you're life sucks and your luck is bad and as time passes by it just gets worse. when you feel that things just cant get any worse than they already are you realise just how murphy was right. life is pointless and sitting here writting all this stuff to a bunch of strangers whilst listening to depressive songs such as suicide is painless and fade to black isnt bringingany sence in this pointless waste of time existance is. who knows maybe someday my depression will reach such level where i will be so depressed that i will actually hear these songs and just look at how optimistic they are. who knows maybe i long for peace and quiet that lack of existance provide.
 
rockin_plumber said:
I hope all is ok MM :grouphug:

What brought this on :?
Or just tell me to mind my own business :wink:
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if you really want to know then read on otherwise skip to the last sentance: what brought this one was the question you asked me. maybe it was just frustartion caused by latest failures at my exams and overall sad state my life had turned into. maybe it was overall unsatisfaction with my life i used to repress with alcohol and drugs before but now after i have been clean for so long those problems started haunting me. or maybe its none of above to be honest i dont know. i like to think its the first alternative but i guess the truth lies somewhere between everyone of those options i told above. and if you read so far then if you wish to reply to this better press reply before you get to the next sentance

and if youre reading this than i must say one god damn thing: dont ask questions you dont wish to know answer for
 
:( I am really bad at this advice stuff MM...........
If its coz you done bad at exams........... just keep trying they let you re-sit them dont they :? Ok it sux but if thats what you need to do then that's what must be done.
As for being clean from the alcohol and drugs that is a good thing :|
As for you being unsatisfied with your life........ :err: Well that is a tricky one....... As I said at the start I am really shit at this advice stuff :(
Do you have any idea where you wanna go with ur life :?
Perhaps you need a good woman to bring you into touch :|
It worked with me :wink:
Isn't there anyone who lives nearby you can talk to about how you feel, coz in my experience it helps to talk to someone face to face :?
 
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